Why do bad things happen to good people

This week I have asked this question over and over again - why do bad things happen to good people? This past wk has been very tough as many emotions have snuck up on me - maybe it is hormones, maybe I am sensitive because of painful memories from my miscarriage brought up by talking about trying for another baby, or maybe it is just me looking around the world and seeing all of the violence and sufferage. I just started following a blog where a loving couple lost their precious baby. Why did this happen - the baby was healthy, the loved and provided for this child. I've really started to question why I am working in the field of counseling and maybe my bleeding heart can't take much more. Everyday I see kids with bruises, dirty, hungry, and afraid. I see parents who are addicted to drugs and alcohol and won't take care of their kids. I listen to stories of abuse all day at work and then I come home stressed and then see it again on the news. I start off the day with negative news in the paper and end with sad news stories. People ask me everyday how do I do my job and usually they end with - I can't believe you are so happy and together when you do this all day. This wk has just been very draining and I needed to vent. Ethically, I'm not allowed to introduce religion to people who don't know or haven't been blessed with the knowledge and love of God but I can't help to think how much better they would be if they had something to believe in. I know Satan is at work when bad things happen to good people but it is so frustrating when things go wrong and you don't have an answer.

On a brighter note, Kynlee is happy and healthy. She is amazing. She is beautiful, funny, and endearing. I'm ready for warmer weather so we can start walking every night and going to the park. She is going a little stir crazy with the winter blues. Shawn has been busy working and has hardly been home - she misses him so much and I feel bad for her. It was easier when she was little and didn't really notice his absence. Hopefully she can get some Jake time in this wk.

Surviving the changes

With the start of the new yr - we have decided to get serious about everything that we have always said were going to do. We have been attending an amazing church for the past few months and it def. was the missing piece in our lives. The experience has been wonderful and we really feel at home in the church. The church community has been very welcoming and supportive. The only drawback is that my little princess refuses to go to her classroom. A few wks ago she cried for over 10 minutes and I gave in and went to get her. I really thought I would be relieving the adults watching her but I now realize that I was trying to make myself feel better and have created a bigger problem than before. I'm not quite sure how to tackle this problem - which is irritating me because I solve so many other peoples problems everyday. As my sister pointed out today - she has total control over me and I am the one listening to her. So the next big step on my agenda is to become the parent again. Don't get me wrong, I'm a very strict and nurturing parent - I want my child to be respectful and grateful for everything she has but because of my issues and the fear that I would never have a child - I have spoiled her beyond anything I ever though i would do.

The other big news is that our house is getting healthy again :) I gained almost 100 pounds with my pregnancy and always put myself on the back burner. My focus was completely on my child - I was so afraid that I would lose the gift that God had given me. So have made big changes - we are walking over 2 miles a day and making better choices. This wk has been hard as I quit drinking coke, which was my main source of energy. I have to keep reminding myself that I didn't gain 50 pounds overnight and that it isn't going to come off the first wk. I became very frustrated yesterday because I actually gained weight - why did I give up all of these things I love and cut my food intake by half to gain weight. I work out and watch the biggest loser and in return expect to lose as much as they do. So I'm taking it day by day and pound by pound.

Welcome to the blogging world!

So after creating this blog over a year ago...I was finally convinced by my sister to actually post on it and keep all my friends and family updated! Stay turned for updated pictures of my sweet little princess and all the changes that are taking place in our lives!!